Here's to the Classics

So I was googling "best classic pieces of all time" and I was directed to a man's blog where he provided a list, videos and descriptions for all these pieces. And he had some fantastic pieces. So I decided I wanted to make my own list :) Here's my favorite classic pieces in no specific order:
(P.S. sorry I couldn't put up the actual videos. I didn't know how this thing would let me) :(

#1: Clair de Lune - Debussy
Ok, if you associate this song with Twilight, are like "omigod! that's from Twilight", I'm so disappointed in you :( I can't judge completely because I discovered this song from Man on Fire. But that movie is so much more epic.
But I appreciate this song alone. So lovely. I like the 3:14 part on piano better. But I liked this version.


#2: Prayer of the Children - Kurt Bestor
"Ironically, I never intended to publish the song at all. I wrote it out of frustration over the horrendous civil war and ethnic cleansing taking place in the former country of Yugoslavia"
This was sung at Dachau on my trip to Europe. Most emotional experience I've ever had with a piece. I like this version, but I think they sing parts of it too fast. I liked the video with it though.


#3: Gretchen am Spinnrade - Schubert


#4: Pas De Deux - from Tchaikovsky's Nutcracker


#5: Blessed are They - Brahms


#6: Across the Stars - John Williams (Love Theme from Star Wars Episode II)
ok so this isn't a "classic" but this is like epic.


#7: Duel of the Fates - John Williams
ok if the love theme gets to be on here so does duel of the fates




ok. i'm getting way off track here.



#8: Sleep - Eric Whitacre
the video is stupid haha but just listen to it


#9: Main Theme from "Ever After" - George Fenton

cyber identities

It amazes me how someone can be so two-faced using the internet.

I'm not talking about people who magically grow a pair of balls and decide to smack talk you on the internet. I'm talking about the people who get accounts on social websites and act like a completely different person from who you thought they were.

They take on this completely opposite persona from who you thought you knew.
How are you supposed to know who they are?

Are they really the person you know, who just seem to be bored with their own lives, so they make up this fake existence to entertain themselves?

Or are they really the person they are online, not under the pressure of peers, teachers, friends, family, etc?

I tried to do this. I made an account on some social site. I was exactly how I am in real life.

And I hated it.

Not the being me part. I love being myself. Not some poser decieving the people I care about.

There was only one person that actually seemed normal on there. Sure, he was a little weird, but I could actually have a conversation with him.

No one else would talk to me how I wanted them to, or actually have intelligent conversations. It was ridiculous. I deleted it and resumed talking to the people I actually care about and who actually care about me.

One of the problems with social sites is people pretty much base you off of how you look. The "hotter" "cuter" "sexier" you look, the more people will talk to you. And based off of that, you can't even start to have a decent conversation.

Maybe people just want attention. I don't know.

I just don't understand the point in acting like someone else.

If other people can't even tell who you are, how are you supposed to?

you are my sweetest downfall

Allow me to ramble for a bit.

(I recommend you stop reading if you're looking for fancy, inspiring words. Sorry.)

So, relationships.

They're a pain in the ass.

Usually not while you're in them, of course and you believe in all the bull known as "love".

It's like thinking you can fly. You start of with a jog. Then as the excitement builds, a run. Eventually your dumb ass is at a full on sprint, just waiting and wanting to see the outcome. If you're unfortunate, you trip and never even make the leap. Just a fall on your face. A stab at your pride.

I've been fortunate enough to not trip.

Then you leap and fly and are caught up in this amazing euphoria known as "l-o-v-e". Everything is great. Everything makes you want to dance and spin around screaming in joy.

This is not reality. You're high.

It seems great but we're so caught up in the wonder of our leap and soar that we never even consider the fall.

The crash to the bottom. We just hope and assume we can fly forever. This is naivety.

For those of us less fortunate ones, we've experienced the crash.

It makes us less willing to leap again.

You're a little bruised and mangled from the last leap.

You get the opportunity to run again, but you run a little slower, less enthusiastically, more cautious of the jump.

You're not really sure you even want to.

It's understandable. I mean after you realize you're not going to be high forever, why do you want to risk the crash to the bottom? Especially after it's happened multiple times.

Freaking lucky people have found someone that will be there. Always. And will catch them.

I'm not talking about marriage. Marriage is as disposable as toilet paper these days.

Let's have a fancy ceremony with pretty attire and expensive decorations. Let's make a show instead of making a declaration to each other.

That's an entirely different subject.

Anyway...

I've yet to find someone to catch me and I'm not going to lie, I'm terrified of jumping. I always run too enthusiastically and jump with too much joy. The high is fantastic, the best I've ever felt in my life. Then I am promised I will be caught. And I'm not. I never am. It's almost like I've been shot down.

So I've come to this emotional block. I get excited, I jog, I run, I sprint.

Then I stop. As fast as I can once I get to the jump.

I don't want to do it.

I'm well aware of the euphoria, but I'm also well aware of the painful meeting with the ground.

And to me, flying really isn't worth the crash. I'm not really a "go for it and see what happens" person after a certain point. It's exhausting. I'm tired of running right now. I don't want the flirting, the physical part, the promises.

You can offer alluring words, but can you live up to them?